I am about to go to Costa Rica for 2 weeks on the most luxurious vacation I’ve had ever. We are going to celebrate 10 years of marriage and we’ve been planning this trip for over a year now. We leave on Saturday. When Katrina hit, the first time I noticed that the tragedy had left my mind, I noticed I was packing for my trip. I thought how unjust it seemed that I was going to Costa Rica to bask in the sun, rest, relax, rejuvinate, and generally just BREATHE when not only people in Louisiana, but all over the world, are suffering so. Wrestling with trying to find a perch from which to devise a persception about ideas like this is something I generally shy away from, try to distract myself from, because the pain of it all is too much to handle. I know this is cowardly but trying to figure out a responsible way to BE around these issues, which include class, race, luck, fate, chance, is so overwhelming to me. Katrina brings this issue in front of me again and I am forced to wrestle with the thoughts that won’t leave me be.
A friend emailed today and said she is taking a doctor, an acupuncturist, a couple of other people and a big truck (she’s also a massage therapist) and driving to Louisiana to help. She found some organizations that can use her and she is mobilizing. She asked for donations of items they could take with them and offered a list to start from with ideas. So many of those items were things I just “had in my house”, had EXTRA of, was hoarding for a time when they would be needed. (Even a COPY MACHINE, which was on the list and in my garage!)
Well they’re needed now! I cried as I pulled together bags of toiletries, linens, FOOD. As I stood at the door of my pantry, after filling two bags full of food, canned food, grains, cliff bars, emergen-C packets, I looked and saw that even after taking all of those things out, we still had extra, plenty, an abundance of food. I could barely notice a difference in our supply of food. I just sat on the floor as this huge reminder of the abundance in my life washed over me.
I am fairly aware of this abundance on a day to day basis. A daily gratitude list helps me to stay in touch with how blessed I am in this world. But to sense this on a deeper more base level, has left me feeling guilt, helplessness, thankfulness, and some fear.
I played a “game” this weekend called the Abundant River. This game leaves you with homework to do over the next week after you play the game. My task was to ask one person a day what they have in abundance in their life. Today my answer is even more far reaching within my life and includes the most basic necessities…food, clothing, shelter, care, safety.
What do you have in abundance today?
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